A Loner in a crowd....

      Well..last two days were kind of 'void' days of my life. And why i mentioned that was , because i was missing all the people back in bangalore. Life's really strange. Not that i am not happy with the life here. Things have been so good, so far ; here in Bhubaneshwar. Lots of changes, having gala time, learning lots. But i was missing people back in bangalore. Do people really forget us, when we are not present around them? OR have they changed ? OR do they feel that we have changed ? I dunno.



    I dunno, why loneliness hits us very badly. its really a rogue. When you are alone, you feel lonely. And even when you are surrounded with people, you feel so. And i tasted the latter version of 'loneliness' for the first time in life, in the last two days. I missed my people back in bangalore. Each one of them. Any cool person would suggest me to contact them - that's the simplest solution for the problem. But at times, you do need to test whether they remember you or not; and so you keep quite. Perhaps, thats the best way to experience 'loneliness'. 'Bitter' - is the experience. Of course, the experience is a temporary. But its a kind of feeling that teaches you lots, about yourself, about people.

    For a person like me,(i wont describe myself though), it becomes difficult to express how it is to feel  lonely. And all that i can say is that atleast once in a day, i scan through the memorable moments that I spent in bangalore, with my people - and just thank God for letting them come into my life. More than that, what do i feel -
 nobody may know....
perhaps, I may never show..........